Vexed and Perplexed

by blueberryseason

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***Album #3***out what stability means, blueberryseason attempts to hook onto turning misery into greater elevation. Being greatly informed by literary ideas, the album took shape through experimenting with song structure and emulating artists while creating a defining soundscape - both bleak and inspiring. The juxtaposition of feelings and ideas gives in to the push/pull of relationships and gives out both sympathy and empathy for the survival of the artist and his dying muse.

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released December 19, 2008

Arthur Medrano (recording, vocals, lyrics, songwriting)

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blueberryseason New York, New York

blueberryseason is composed of a sole member - Arthur Medrano. He has been home recording, performing and busking since 2006. Inspired by the poetry that he reads and writes, he crafts songs with a literary edge that are both heart-rending and inspiring. ... more

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Track Name: exist
N/A
Track Name: epic maverick spirit
the catatonic piano bangs out
a broken tune,
an unplayed melody,
the ebony and ivory keys
Schoenberg's greatest muse
cascading piano sounds
once filled my dreams
undulating wave patterns
and harmonies
like hieroglyphics
elliptical caress listen to the sound your heart makes.
like pyramids sown into your lining whether breaking or breathing,
seeming like Phoenician we're losing our own sanity.
your Greek is fluent insanity.
and mixing my vodka and cranberries insanity.
with your lips insanity.
our blips sway
in their slow
broken metronome pace
our rhythms holy just to dance on time's end
watch as the snow incredible again
fills our minds and the jigsaw pieces move again
and for that instant feel the fear being taken away
we are free all i have to say is i will never play that game
reality trembles at our fingers listen to the sound your heart makes
see how we fold into each other when it breaks or breathes again
we fold into each other
birds without recluse or homes to go back to
other than the sky,
the sky,
the sky in your eyes
in a puddle
we dance
just to quiver
on the edge of time's end
and swallow the Hudson
bury all the snakes.
Track Name: directionless
we're sailing
real far
from the ones we love
directionless today
just to follow the graves
of loved ones
--we seem to be directionless
falling through our lives
drop into abyss
find another home--
day is gone
there's the stage
show us
what you know
-we seem to be so secure
I seem to be nothing more
i'm nobody man
but i will make it one day
i will make it one day-
--oh the day is coming
the day is coming--
-wanna be someone someday
don't wanna live a life in shame
hiding behind the buzzer
never be someone-
--what's your name
we're missing now
it's coming undone
what's your name
help us get farther --
Track Name: turn
N/A
Track Name: lurking
something has got my soul
lying inside a stone
help i'm gone and i'm going down to the place i can't help it
something has got my eyes
someone is going to die
something has got my mind and it feels like it's going down again
something has got my heart
enraptured from the start
but it feels someone help me i can't leave inside to get what i need
what does it fucking mean?
it's coming again
it's coming again
it's coming again
it's coming...
something has got my life
something is lost inside
i can't help it when i go where nothing is
and it sinks really fucking in
i can't help it when you feel my eyes i can't help but see anything is gonna die
i could never heal anything in my life
i could never feel anything in my life
Track Name: adia
I was lost inside my own shell
screaming out for someone to break me open
something like hands open to me
I was scared of being unprepared
could not make it any different
my will imposed due to
but Adiaaaaaaaaaa
you're not there to let me be
give me a look and set me free
I was vexed and perplexed
could not find my own solution
to you and me breaking apart
but Adiaaaaaaaaaa
you're not there to let me be
just give me a kiss and let me be
but every time the skies are grey
every time i look away
makes me miss what i really love
you're a doctor of my heart
let me feel the love come through my chest
my heart open to your embrace
but Adiaaaaaaaaa
you're not there to let me be
give me a look and set me free
Track Name: this is real
i dropped my dreams into a well
replaced nightmarish hell
i tried my best to be a man
instead i just got damned

i tried my best with the police
drawing the strings from my fleece
could not convince them i was right
damn near started a fight

but with the spark went the heat the light the glowing of your eye
and i feel this should not be a common thing, this is real

the ambulance took her for a ride
they thought she was going to die
they wouldn't even let me see
what was to come or be

i dropped my dreams into a well
replaced nightmarish hell
i tried my best to be a man
instead i just got damned

but with the spark went the heat the light the glowing of your eye
and i feel this should not be a common thing, this is real

with the dark, went the seeds the life all glowing under us
and i feel this should not be a common thing this is real
Track Name: detached
first let us be cautious
what is lurking beneath the immediate
next let's use detachment
clear-headedness consists in me
why must i try so hard
to get the things i always love
i wait forever just to see
the bits of you remain in me
here i throw up a caution
cos' i can't relive those memories
why must i try so hard
to make the past and present one
i wait forever just to see
the bits of you consuming me
if i could find a way to make it better
right there i would be
i see your face and wonder will it turn back for me
oh my darling no
oh my domino
the tears flow forever
memories won't fit the tether
and fall and sometimes whether
i can't love you as i did never
my love for you is dead
Track Name: foundation of the stars
the foundation of the stars
shackle to nowhere
still trippin over seashells
too wrapped up to ever care

never care what others think
cancer like cobwebs on the bone
while our guitar go plink plink
time will tell if times are old

tell someone that you miss
that the army's overthrown
burn knowledge
wish you had
leave leave what's left of me alone
Track Name: i am in war too
i am the lifeblood / and the beds
on which you bled
the ectoplasm
which you craved / the ghost which you saved
you said, "go into the light" / unready for battle
we found the roads paved / with broken glass
and jagged bits of melodies
we once / cried to remember
i felt your burning ember
beside another light
like the phoenix that dies for us / we are born again / in another light
in other forms
that which is stolen from us
can be recouped
i am in war too
and this time : i need your eyes / your kiss / your salvation
come oh come
Track Name: crystal
the crystal wake bakes you takes you alone on a journey that no one refuses to go
takes you places you don't really know
like inside of your skull where the angels will grow
where the angels will grow

i tried again on a poster to go
but i thought was nothing and i just let go
the crystal wake bakes you and makes you all whole
i found i was naked and i was alone
now i'm all alone
now i'm all alone

but it makes
such a difference
when you try
but it makes
such a difference
when you try

the angel that broke open sent all away
she took up my body and filled it with clay
and everything washed up
and everything clothed
was really a guise for something you know

i never break in and then again
i tried really hard but i got knocked in

the angels were breaking
the call all their own were screaming again
now i'm all alone
now i'm all alone
Track Name: this napkin smells of clove
this cigarette
is yours
in my pocket
it goes
why would anybody let that flow
why would anybody let that go
this napkin
smells of clove
from my pocket
it goes
why would anybody blow their nose
when the napkin smells like clove
your cigarette
unrolled
your wishes
bestowed
why would anybody let that go
when the napkin smells like clove
Track Name: i'm happy for you
so you've found a new man
well i'm happy for you
ever since you left me
oh my world was so blue
then depression took me on
and under i went
manicdepressive insanity psychosis everything good had gone away
to taste your lips was sweet
sweet nectar of believe
now i'm flying
your love was good for me
but you forgot it now i'm free
and i'm flying
so you've found a new man
well i want him to die
ever since you left me
oh my insides they have dried
and i've bounced around
in a hospital or two
everything i thought was wrong all the love i had i knew
it was fucking dead
wehn your love had left me
it suffocated me
and i died
when you remember me
just think that i am free good i died
everything i did was wrong and red
everything i read was green and blue
everything i knew was read out loud
every thought of you and i was
every single thought of you in my head
be thinking more of you
and i could not build a callous in to where
i could not see what was there
but i found a way to save my soul
even though, i love you so
then i found a way to save myself
even though, it hurts me so
everything i thought in my head
was everything i thought i said
everything i did was so fucking wrong
every time i tried to remember you
every time i tried to remember me
every time i tried to remember us
now i've found my way to save my soul
even though, it hurts me so
well i've found a way to save my self
now i think my love is dead
so i've moved on
well i'm happy for me
many come and many gone
but none like you
now i think
to taste your lips was sweet
sweet nectar of belief now i'm flying
your love was good to me
but you forgot it now i'm free and i'm flying