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Music for a Bell Jar

by blueberryseason

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1.
would write 02:15
my best friend is the baddest motherfucker i know takes all the girls that he wants back to his home in the ashes of the wildfire that's becoming his lifestyle you said you would write didn't you you said it's alright didn't you you said you would write from your way my best friend was caught just the other day caught with a pound of crack/cocaine in the absence of your brother he will find it hard to recover you said you would write didn't you you said it's alright didn't you you said you would write from your way i don't know where my friend has gone posted bail and is on the run now he's living under covers and he will fight those who discover you said you would write didn't you you said it's alright didn't you you said you would write on my grave
2.
dig down 02:17
every single day i lie words dig down today i cry but it seems that i can't face the world today and it's crushing me like a blow every single thing i bite the words dig down and i'm blind but it seems that i can't face the world as it is today and it's crushing me so slow
3.
looking out the window see the pitter-patter of the rain life comes at you fast when you're staring at the door said i have seen all the things that've been and now it's gone without a trace all that's left is your seared face these days i can't seem to make a connection stand before the mirror and look at my beaten reflection said i have seen all the things i've been and now it's gone been displaced without a doubt i've been erased i could never hit without your love i could never sing without your help me please
4.
'said I broke down all the doors and I am begging for more now i'm no good for anyone anymore and i'm no good for anyone anymore said i hit all of the skies i burned out most of my eyes now i'm no good for anyone anymore yea i'm no good for anyone anymore seems we've been drowning in the pool of sorrow caught in all the things we've borrowed i feel amused but not impressed caught up in things keep me depressed i'm out of time spent all my dimes i've got no luck i've been deprived i get choked up i feel mistrust upon my spine i trust no lies i've got no lust falling from rust we lose our lives rolling di said I broke down all the doors and i am begging for more now i don't care for anyone anymore yea i don't care for anyone anymore i hit the sky burn out my eyes i feel depressed put to the test i feel surprised i get a rise from choking ducks upon these fucks we seem to think plurality as some sick virtue or disguise of all our wealth upon bad health i'm feeling green got to be pleased i feel depressed put to the test i hit the skies burn out my eyes from choking ducks upon these fucks i get a rise i feel so sad... i broke down all the doors and i am begging for more but i don't care for anyone anymore yea i'm no good for anyone anymore
5.
what to deliver what to disguise what to remember time has arrived nothing works in this goddamned place i need a new living i need my own space but jesus christ don't ya know i've been searching for you jesus christ don't ya know i've been sinnin' for you i broke the mirror again i just might have to come for you all these things i can not do reveal to me that i'm through with you jesus christ don't ya know what's deserving of you jesus christ don't ya know i'm repenting for you what does it mean when you're asked so slow what does it mean get down on the floor i couldn't hit any part of your heart you were face down and i killed your mom but jesus christ don't ya know i've been killin' for you jesus christ don't ya know i've been sinnin' for you what's left to languish please bow to your god i don't hallucinate anymore what to deliver why can't i hide? surrender fatigue come come round that side jesus christ don't ya know i have done this for you jesus christ don't ya know now they're coming for me my love is pierced with the strength of ten men and a red pen scribbled across my chest we come together to find the truth they don't know i've killed you too jesus christ don't you know? i'm a killer for you jesus christ don't you know? i'm not listening to you
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aura lee 02:09
verse 1 oh orely can't you see - what you've done decimated all my vowels my bed sleeps in showers didn't love you or me verse 2 this november low makes me feel oh so indecisive ergo i feel unfree didn't let you see that which belonged to me didn't know you or me oh and i feel sunset on me oh this is real together apart we start to grow inside and on the outside we start to grow together apart we'll shine waiting for the dew in your eyes that held me captive
7.
verse 1 oh orely can't you see - what you've done decimated all my vowels my bed sleeps in showers didn't love you or me verse 2 this november low makes me feel oh so indecisive ergo i feel unfree didn't let you see that which belonged to me didn't know you or me oh and i feel sunset on me oh this is real together apart we start to grow inside and on the outside we start to grow together apart we'll shine waiting for the dew in your eyes that held me captive ************************************************************************ i've got my apology written and it tells you time has made me more than sorry though i almost died you'll find the words are blurry half of it won't make sense but i tried to make the most of it to praise what we had why don't you try harder change states of mind why don't you try just getting alive to find yourself i find it hard to leave cos' you're still on my mind but you know it won't be that way once i get what's mine i'm welling up with sorrow cos' never tried to go past the surface level of what was our own why don't you try harder keep memories at bay why can't you get better she'll leave you on your knees you can take your morals and throw them away you can take your anger face it at me but it won't fix any problem so long as we are dead we tried to make it work and we did not find our ends i've run a billion thoughts in my head and i don't care anymore why can't you try harder why must you leave me so why don't you try harder to please your own damn self
8.
moonshine 02:36
never been held ever like this my life unfolds for just one kiss your eyes tell lies and i can't hide but i will sing i've been held by your landslide love i've been derailed by your caldera honey you make my heart grow just a little bit honey you make my heart shine feeling infinite here i will spin i found a pool and drowned in it i found an altar bathed in it my lies increase through the skies except for this i've been held by your moonshine love yes i've been jailed by your white lightning honey you make my heart glow just a little bit honey you make my heart shine nearing infinite still i won't quit i found a torture i can't miss i've found that i've just been dismissed i'm feeling numb and my eyes are starting to fail
9.
oh LJ 02:06
oh LJ how i miss you so oh oh you were there to deliver me from my home then one day i got real fucking sick had to sever myself from the shit my mind wrote i was not right oh LJ won't you please be softer to my touch? won't you please be patient with me because before i got real fucking sick had to sever myself from the shit my mind wrote i was not right oh LJ won't you please take me back again into lives of others and self
10.
war 03:28
i am the author of a war a war that's raging keep me whole and you start to feel alive for death's real corner by your side yea its creeping through our brains our breaths are seemingly broken now and you start to feel alive i am a blessing in disguise rebuild and function counterclockwise yea i start to feel the same the times we're running through the ash yea i start to feel my brain we're talking through our mouths she said yea i start to feel the same talking through my breath explosions where you met in time you will see the many things you'll be your time will surely come run circling round the hedges finding potential wasted Golden Vs? in time you will see more to this we won't be fighting over land we'll fight for seas cos' it's damn sure i'm right ~~~~~~~~~~ cos' i'm damn sure i'm right all the time to keep me hiding nothing's coming to me nothing worth the wait i am a crisis been resolved finally addressing what is wrong
11.
wink away 03:01
what you get is what you see never falling but never free always trying out always trying out what you get is what you see when you're falling you'll never see what is around what is around take a picture talk about yourself you're out of focus wink away the catalyst of your eye has not yet been supplied what you get is what you see when you're flying are you really free try to figure out try to figure out then you fall upon the brakes stumble a bit and then you break when your eyes are satisfied you'll be well supplied won't you take on my life believing fixed false beliefs won't you take on my life see the pain that's been reeled in won't you take on my life paranoia's at your door synapses firing frantically see the fear that's been fixed in what you get is what you see never falling but never free always trying out always trying out
12.
i need love i need warmth tender kisses on my temple divine i need hugs stolen rugs my june bug the death on her lips vista honorae choni dobzre you're my blood running red from sheets slit upon my bed you're my water turned to wine girl you're sweeter than any blasphemy i could give examine laude liefje cerce kiss yr knees in remembrance of a prayer you once answered for yourself

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***ALBUM #2*** Traveling in song, getting perspective, finding footing in what is real by expressing what I feel and I feel this is the best thing I've done but it's just fragments of what I envisioned. Melodies and harmonies, pop songs and anti-pop songs - the perfect mish-mash for whoever wants to listen to whatever.

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released October 1, 2007

written, recorded and produced by Arthur Medrano in his bedroom

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blueberryseason Gainesville, Florida

blueberryseason is composed of a sole songwriter alongside various collaborators. Arthur Manuel Medrano (blueberryseason) has been home recording, performing and busking since 2006.

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